Day 59----

Today it snowed twice. It's been the coldest May on record since the 70s. When bambi saw the snow she said, " How is this HAPPENING? This snow is so COMPLICATED!!" Yet another installment of our unsprung spring.

I feel very safe in our apartment today. Everything we need for survival crammed in this tiny space perched above the tragic streets. I'm laying in bed reading a fat paperback, my belly full of bread pudding, radiators rattling industriously.

But also there's a beep in the airshaft that's been going on all day and was too loud in her room for bambi to sleep. I laid down on the old flattened sheepskin next to her much too small crib to try and coax her then fell asleep myself while she stared at me. I could hear the beeps all through the miserable sleep--definitely despair sleep. My neck hurt so much and I couldn't feel one arm when I woke up.... one cheek deeply imprinted with sheep fur.

note: around 10pm the fire department arrived en-mass all up and down the block, entered the building next door and a few minutes later re-emerged and the beeping had stopped.